Hello all my wonderfuls! It's another day here in the land of being a house wife in the middle of summer. I have lots going through my head but mostly I'm sitting here completely and utterly bored.
Tonight for the first time since November last year sometime, Camera Man and I have agreed to do some photo work. I have this cute but very tight little tube dress that I'm going to get into with some black full pantyhose and heels... of course don't forget all my glamour sides that go with it.
This post is just a catch all for my thoughts, ideas and what is going through my mind as I await Camera Man to get off work or at least the time that I can start getting ready without fear that my efforts won't be undone before the photos get taken.
I figured if I'm going to come back, I'm going to come back a more relaxed me... that includes letting you into my real side a bit more often because if I do so, you'll get use to the non-glamour me as well and I can feel a bit better about shooting videos without always getting made up in all sorts of ways... specially for those not planned moments that I would like to capture such as some of the hot wake-up blow jobs I give Camera Man or the times that I find myself getting a few rubs in by myself. this means my photos and videos will now also show what I look like every day vs what look like after I've gone through putting on the very little bit of make-up that I do wear. When it comes down to it consists of liquid foundation, powder cover up, mascara, sometimes eye liner (both of these are always in black) and some lipstick. On VERY rare occasions I also wear some eye shadow but like maybe 2 or 3 times a year as well as what I do with my hair and how well it behaves for me when I do start to style it.
On that note, I have also come up with some more ideas that I want to shoot videos for...
~ Still want to make bubble gum blowing videos... might even see about some photo sets that include it from time to time.
~ Shoe/feet show... going to make a nice white background, put the camera low and show off my lovely plump feet while I show you my heels, which still fit and which don't after a 35kilo weight gain since I stopped working.
~ Balloon play... I have a whole wonderful assortment of balloons from shapes to small to big to REALLY fucking big balloons and I'm looking forward to playing with them. I even recently purchases big 9 foot (3 meter) large balloons... not sure what they are all about yet but I will explore them on camera.
~ Simple glamour videos... I use to do these often when I started... we'd run the video camera for a few minutes before shooting. Just showing you my wonderful body in motion while dressed all sexy for you. I have had requests to make these again so I will.
~ Walking in heels... another requested video set and if I still have heels I'm comfortable walking in, just going to show off my big 60+ inch ass, thick long legs and sexy feel in high heels walking back and forth for you.
~ Sea/beach videos... there have been a number of requests from outdoor to car to stuff like dipping my pretty toenail painted feet in the wet cool sand. I'm going to see about doing some of these this summer before the nice weather goes away. Perhaps even bringing in a friend or 2 to take this content.
~ Domination/sub stuffs... my 'bbw Dom riding her sub' video has sold so many times I can't count any more from the day I put it out right up until this week that it must be a re-do video... almost 8yrs later with new lingerie, on the bed with him bound and perhaps blind folded.
~ Tickling... this is a new fetish lately and I have *no* problems playing into it since Camera Man is so highly ticklish! I plan to bind him to the bed and go at it. I though am not ticklish I'm afraid so I can't do it the other way.
~ Black light... I had a VERY fun time with this last year! So much so that I invested in a large black light of my own to use in my bedroom with my black-out drapes pulled. I even made sure I had hot lingerie what would work in it as well as stuff like nail decals.
Do you have some video or photo requests for me?? E-Mail me your requests and I'll see what I can do but no promises. I have so many more ideas, we'll just have to see where time takes me. The only time I make requests 100% is when you buy a video in advance to ensure you get exactly what you want 100%. You can also contact me to ask what this means but only serious offers will be answered so be careful as what you start asking for.
One last question answered... I have been asked the last month or so why I decided to get back into making content. I have 2 reasons for this, specially the last month. First, if you have gone through my blog entries lately, you'll know I have decided after filing our income taxes this year that it is not worth me working the kind of work I do like doing vs how much money I actually bring in after losing it to almost 2000euro worth of taxes.
The 2nd reason only started to be known to me. As those who have actually taken the time to get to know me know that I have been on Xanax since around the time I had my cyst removed. They worked wonders and I stayed on roughly a 0.50mg (lowest does possible in the extended release form) dose for quite a few years, too many years to be honest. It was time that I came off them to not only make myself feel better but to ensure that if I do ever need them for a real emergency that they will be as effective as they need to be without being at a higher dose. For those of you who don't know the side effects to this drug, the biggest, TIREDNESS! OMG I didn't realize exactly how much this was effecting me with exception of night time! I have now been free of this drug for over a month and I am so much more awake then I have ever been. That means more energy, more want, more will and the drive to do things I once found enjoyable... one of them is photos & videos.
I think Camera Man and I are going to plan for a weekly Friday evening session of photo shooting as this is a day there is no concern over going to bed early for work the next day, Videos will be a do it when we feel like it and a lot of solo shooting videos or when I have a planned request. I'm even going to mess with the remote shooting in the way of photo sets as I feel like it. I'm going to grab a friend or 2 as well to take some more gentle glamour style photos such as the sea side stuff I want since it's easier to get there during the week days vs the weekend or after Camera Man is off work, already tired from his day.
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Friday, August 7, 2015
Monday, August 3, 2015
New Month & New Plans
Good morning all my wonderful readers! It's a new month and I have a lot in store for the rest of this year! I already have a nice stock of new videos on hand but have to go through the process of editing yet.
The rest of the year at least will be filled with lots of new ideas and video updates throughout. I will also try to squeeze in some photo sets but that is if I feel up to getting so dolled up that I can sit through a set :P
I have a new plan in my head... recently we have had a previous neighbor move out after having the police called one too many times for their 4 dogs which 2 would set each other off from the little tiny yapper type dog to the bigger english pitbull who would have a deep bark and howl. Recently we have a new neighbor who seems to have a single yappy type dog and so far both days that I know of it it starts up at around 7-8am and does NOTHING but yap! Because of that my new plan is in in progress.... MOVING FUND!!!
I need to save up 3000euro for a move... that will include deposit of 3 months (1 month down, 1st and last month type thing which will be any where from 1500-2000) and movers... no way we can move this entire 14yrs of stuff with a small car not to mention our fridge needs to go out the window which means hiring a window lift anyhow.
So with that said, Camera Man and I have agreed that I can put away my funds from my clips4sale work to move with. When we have the funds, we'll start looking for a new place. And you all know what a new place means! A better chance before moving to pick a place better suited for photos/videos firstly even with the idea of a 3rd bedroom that we decorate specially for that purpose perhaps! And 2ndly, a NEW shooting location that I can have lots of fun with!
I'm not asking for donations but if you find a video you like to perhaps would like to dip in for a membership, you can find my Main Clips4sale Here or my High Def Clips4sale Here. If you do want to donate for the sake of being kind, you can also find the TRIBUTE button on each store where you can drop any where from $5 to $500.
Here is for planning for the future! *KISSES*
The rest of the year at least will be filled with lots of new ideas and video updates throughout. I will also try to squeeze in some photo sets but that is if I feel up to getting so dolled up that I can sit through a set :P
I have a new plan in my head... recently we have had a previous neighbor move out after having the police called one too many times for their 4 dogs which 2 would set each other off from the little tiny yapper type dog to the bigger english pitbull who would have a deep bark and howl. Recently we have a new neighbor who seems to have a single yappy type dog and so far both days that I know of it it starts up at around 7-8am and does NOTHING but yap! Because of that my new plan is in in progress.... MOVING FUND!!!
I need to save up 3000euro for a move... that will include deposit of 3 months (1 month down, 1st and last month type thing which will be any where from 1500-2000) and movers... no way we can move this entire 14yrs of stuff with a small car not to mention our fridge needs to go out the window which means hiring a window lift anyhow.
So with that said, Camera Man and I have agreed that I can put away my funds from my clips4sale work to move with. When we have the funds, we'll start looking for a new place. And you all know what a new place means! A better chance before moving to pick a place better suited for photos/videos firstly even with the idea of a 3rd bedroom that we decorate specially for that purpose perhaps! And 2ndly, a NEW shooting location that I can have lots of fun with!
I'm not asking for donations but if you find a video you like to perhaps would like to dip in for a membership, you can find my Main Clips4sale Here or my High Def Clips4sale Here. If you do want to donate for the sake of being kind, you can also find the TRIBUTE button on each store where you can drop any where from $5 to $500.
Here is for planning for the future! *KISSES*
Monday, July 27, 2015
New Game Loves
You all should know by now that I'm totally addicted to games... mostly RPG or platform style but I'm also a sucker for a good time waster style game.
Lately my loves are....
~ Torch Light 2 (rpgish) for the Computer... I have TL1 for xbox too but it's one game that I actually enjoy it more on the computer because of the mass amounts of controls that are needed for xbox to run it properly. By the time you learn how to the controls all go to keep your butt alive, your done with the game!
~ FarmVille2... I've been playing this for a year now... I'm working on a number of different farms but my main one is a high level (don't remember off hand but 100+) and I'm always looking for neighbors. Add curvykitty1977@gmail.com if you want to play! I play strictly through Zynga.com though and not facebook, it's a better platform along with a better game feed to get items one needs every day.
~ Simpsons Tapped Out... I was playing this for quite a while when I was working for my previous bosses (the first round) but lost the love for it. Recently I started up again and wouldn't mind more neighbors! Will look up what email I'm using and re-edit this post though because off hand I don't remember *slapf*.
~ *NEW* Cooking Dash 2016... this is what I meant by time wasters. I would play stuff like cooking dash and such from Big Fish games or when they were around Reflexive Games but this is a new one in the style of the whole on-line can play for free but we offer goodies for buy as well such as FarmVille2 does. I just started playing this today but am *100%* hooked. I don't know yet if it's available for PC yet but I'm playing it for the moment on my tablet.
So with those 4 atm, I'm pretty set on game play. Please see the next posting for information on new content and what I've been doing lately toward it.
Lately my loves are....
~ Torch Light 2 (rpgish) for the Computer... I have TL1 for xbox too but it's one game that I actually enjoy it more on the computer because of the mass amounts of controls that are needed for xbox to run it properly. By the time you learn how to the controls all go to keep your butt alive, your done with the game!
~ FarmVille2... I've been playing this for a year now... I'm working on a number of different farms but my main one is a high level (don't remember off hand but 100+) and I'm always looking for neighbors. Add curvykitty1977@gmail.com if you want to play! I play strictly through Zynga.com though and not facebook, it's a better platform along with a better game feed to get items one needs every day.
~ Simpsons Tapped Out... I was playing this for quite a while when I was working for my previous bosses (the first round) but lost the love for it. Recently I started up again and wouldn't mind more neighbors! Will look up what email I'm using and re-edit this post though because off hand I don't remember *slapf*.
~ *NEW* Cooking Dash 2016... this is what I meant by time wasters. I would play stuff like cooking dash and such from Big Fish games or when they were around Reflexive Games but this is a new one in the style of the whole on-line can play for free but we offer goodies for buy as well such as FarmVille2 does. I just started playing this today but am *100%* hooked. I don't know yet if it's available for PC yet but I'm playing it for the moment on my tablet.
So with those 4 atm, I'm pretty set on game play. Please see the next posting for information on new content and what I've been doing lately toward it.
Tuesday, June 23, 2015
Thursday, November 27, 2014
B & B Stay - Ups and Downs
Hello again all my wonderfuls. Firstly, I know that the background and logo are still from Halloween but come next weeks update, I'll have Christmas in place for the sites. For now though, It's time to talk about the hotel Camera Man and I booked. For the cost it was a VERY nice hotel... actually it's not really a hotel, it's a glorified apartment that one rents. They put it in the bed and breakfast category.
You can read about it and see some photos of when I started my plans with it... HERE.
Now I had all sorts of plans for this room in the way of shooting but when it really came down to it we ended up leaving with a mere 1 photo set and 2 videos. The evening was VERY nice, dinner cooked for us by the owner right there in our room but that slashed out the kitchen to use as it was a mess by the time he was done. Also when we arrived, there was some changes made to it that made some of the rooms no longer there. All in all I lost about 60% of the rooms/spaces I had planned to do things with. The bedroom was where the massage table was, that was removed. The 'lounge' area with all the sofas and table was converted into a 2nd bedroom in case families stayed or something. The bathroom that was shown was indeed the other room and not the one we rented. There were 2 big showers but meh, not really anything different then one would find in a swimming pool with exception that had a massage shower in it. So that really left us with the bedroom, the hallway and a small portion of where the kitchen/lounge/2nd bedroom meet.
For shooting, I'm sure it could have gone better... I was really looking forward to enjoy some of the bathroom features but well, the features are the ones in another room. For a very romantic evening for 2 on a wedding anniversary, it was wonderful. He prepared so much good natural flavorful foods for us... all seafood which I LOoOOOVE! Starting the evening was salmon tartar with onions and more in it serves with a rice vinegar sauce he made on the side. Followed by, well for Camera Man, scallop sashimi where as I opted for my scallops to be cooked... I pushed myself already with the salmon and didn't fancy pushing myself any more.
Then came main course... or should I say courses! He served not one but 2 main courses! The first was a wonderful fish, something neither of us had ever tried just lightly fried with some very nicely camalized leek/onion/garlic mixture and spice rice. The next dish was a beautiful piece of cod served on top of a bed of mace scented carrot slices with a nice tomato/pepper mixture on the side and some wonderfully cooked potatoes.
There was dessert for a simple vanilla ice cream but after all that, we just didn't want anything else. It was a VERY nice dinner and for once, a dinner I could feel comfortable enough not to worry about the gluten factor being an issue.
The evening mmmmm oh yes the evening was wonderful as well except that as I pushed myself the entire day, pushed myself through some fears/comfort zones, the late evening became a problem as the night fell and I went into panic mode *shrug*. By the morning I was fine but man, I hate not having control over the panic attacks and such that I did before the accident!
Breakfast was included but it was for Camera Man only this time as it wasn't mentioned that I can't eat gluten to the lady that delivered it the next morning. I was also quite peeved that instead of ringing the doorbell and having us let her in, she just walked in through the guest bedroom instead. I'm going to have to have a word with the owner about this factor.
Anyhow, the whole experience was VERY nice. We didn't go to the casino that night due to being tired and worn out from a long night and all my stupid panic stuffs but we did make it out there on Monday late afternoon/early evening. I love playing black jack, I played well and was ahead by 50euro or so but that is about the time one should walk away and find something else for a while and I didn't. I didn't walk away with anything won but I still had a good time. Actually going to a casino though, at least if it's not say Los Vegas for instance, is a dying breed I'm afraid. There was no more then a couple dozen people in a place that is meant for more like 200 or more. I was most of the time playing cards just between me and the dealer. Easier to keep track on the cards but man it's not nearly as much fun. I won't be going again, it's not worth it really any more. Perhaps I'll try a game of bowling or something next.
Anyhow, enjoy some of the photos of the evening of personal chef cooking that Camera Man and I had and I'll be back to post some more stuff tomorrow and next week. *KISSES*
You can read about it and see some photos of when I started my plans with it... HERE.
Now I had all sorts of plans for this room in the way of shooting but when it really came down to it we ended up leaving with a mere 1 photo set and 2 videos. The evening was VERY nice, dinner cooked for us by the owner right there in our room but that slashed out the kitchen to use as it was a mess by the time he was done. Also when we arrived, there was some changes made to it that made some of the rooms no longer there. All in all I lost about 60% of the rooms/spaces I had planned to do things with. The bedroom was where the massage table was, that was removed. The 'lounge' area with all the sofas and table was converted into a 2nd bedroom in case families stayed or something. The bathroom that was shown was indeed the other room and not the one we rented. There were 2 big showers but meh, not really anything different then one would find in a swimming pool with exception that had a massage shower in it. So that really left us with the bedroom, the hallway and a small portion of where the kitchen/lounge/2nd bedroom meet.
For shooting, I'm sure it could have gone better... I was really looking forward to enjoy some of the bathroom features but well, the features are the ones in another room. For a very romantic evening for 2 on a wedding anniversary, it was wonderful. He prepared so much good natural flavorful foods for us... all seafood which I LOoOOOVE! Starting the evening was salmon tartar with onions and more in it serves with a rice vinegar sauce he made on the side. Followed by, well for Camera Man, scallop sashimi where as I opted for my scallops to be cooked... I pushed myself already with the salmon and didn't fancy pushing myself any more.
Then came main course... or should I say courses! He served not one but 2 main courses! The first was a wonderful fish, something neither of us had ever tried just lightly fried with some very nicely camalized leek/onion/garlic mixture and spice rice. The next dish was a beautiful piece of cod served on top of a bed of mace scented carrot slices with a nice tomato/pepper mixture on the side and some wonderfully cooked potatoes.
There was dessert for a simple vanilla ice cream but after all that, we just didn't want anything else. It was a VERY nice dinner and for once, a dinner I could feel comfortable enough not to worry about the gluten factor being an issue.
The evening mmmmm oh yes the evening was wonderful as well except that as I pushed myself the entire day, pushed myself through some fears/comfort zones, the late evening became a problem as the night fell and I went into panic mode *shrug*. By the morning I was fine but man, I hate not having control over the panic attacks and such that I did before the accident!
Breakfast was included but it was for Camera Man only this time as it wasn't mentioned that I can't eat gluten to the lady that delivered it the next morning. I was also quite peeved that instead of ringing the doorbell and having us let her in, she just walked in through the guest bedroom instead. I'm going to have to have a word with the owner about this factor.
Anyhow, the whole experience was VERY nice. We didn't go to the casino that night due to being tired and worn out from a long night and all my stupid panic stuffs but we did make it out there on Monday late afternoon/early evening. I love playing black jack, I played well and was ahead by 50euro or so but that is about the time one should walk away and find something else for a while and I didn't. I didn't walk away with anything won but I still had a good time. Actually going to a casino though, at least if it's not say Los Vegas for instance, is a dying breed I'm afraid. There was no more then a couple dozen people in a place that is meant for more like 200 or more. I was most of the time playing cards just between me and the dealer. Easier to keep track on the cards but man it's not nearly as much fun. I won't be going again, it's not worth it really any more. Perhaps I'll try a game of bowling or something next.
Anyhow, enjoy some of the photos of the evening of personal chef cooking that Camera Man and I had and I'll be back to post some more stuff tomorrow and next week. *KISSES*
Tuesday, September 23, 2014
Last Weekend's Update - My Apologies
Hello again all my wonderfuls... I'm stopping in here this morning (it's just before 8am on 9-24-2014 my time that is, most likely you all in the good ol' US of A are still tucked away in your beds or perving some where :P) and I realized just before going to bed last night that I didn't place an update last Sunday. Being that it's only Wednesday, I'm going to place an update sometime today and then also place a new update Sunday as well on it's normal schedule.
Now the reason behind this, and bare with me as it's a bit of a tale to be told. Firstly, most of you that have read my blog here, know that a couple of months ago I had an accident on the way to work which caused a mild concussion and due to that caused things like temp lose of eye sight in my left eye, dizziness related to the accident and my vision, massive problems with my short term memory, very very bad headaches and then on top of it problems now because of all the extra stress and the lack of time I'm being given to reduce my stress and heal, it's only taken longer then I would like for it to heal but it also get set back a bit every time someone stresses me out even more.
Needless to say, Friday back fired the whole healing deal that I've made leaps and bonds in because my 'boss' is trying to give me my 2 week notice... as in he is trying to fire me.
First and foremost, he's doing it totally against the rules. Giving me 2 different reasons from one that is stated on paper and the other verbally as to why he is firing me. The one on paper as far as I know is not legal because he did it in french and by the laws, paperwork either needs to be in the language of the staff or the language of where the head business is.... in this case flemish/dutch. The reason on paper though is against the working law because it states due not being there which he can't fire me openly for because the 'not being there' is completely by medical leave and doctors. The 'other' reason which was verbal to me (and Camera Man as I brought him with Friday as my translator and short term memory just in case) was that 'the business isn't doing so well and he has to restructure'... or in short get rid of employees that he can't afford because of money issues. This too is not totally legal as there was someone hired after me to 'fill in' while I was gone which should of then had a temp contract that would end at the time I was able to fully come back or he would be found another position within the work place other than mine. Not to mention all of the changes and money he put toward 'other' things for the work place that would cost my wage a month or more such as new tables/chairs, cable installment, a new LCD TV and some other things I can think of.
With ALL of that above, I'm now, along with my union, going to fight it to the teeth. I will admit, especially now, I was not looking forward to going back anyhow because all of people, including the boss himself, are too young. I think the oldest just turned 24 other then the boss who is still just 30yrs old. Ok he has a head on his shoulders for business but not in the way of how to conduct a crew that is of mixed years it seems.
On top of that though there are 3 other money/work related issues going on, firstly from my prior boss I am missing (mostly because I didn't know about it) something we have out here called eco-checks. They are basically extra money up to the sum of 250euro for the highest but in the form of checks that can be used on 'eco friendly' items. I am entitled to them by law by making so much per year. Then it's calculated on one of those 'you made this much, times this much and divided by this much' type scale but when it comes down to it I'm owed about 200euro worth for the 2.5yrs I worked with them. So that is another thing happening not related to the work leave I'm on.
Related to the work leave I'm on, my July pay (the first month I was off due to the accident) was messed up because it was marked down as a 'sickness' instead of an accident. The difference between the 2... first one has a pay out of 2/3rd my wage and the other is 100% my wage. No matter, the insurance company has taken it on as a claim and being covered so the boss even gets paid back for that first month.... how ever I'm still sitting here out that 400+ euro. As of Monday, the union was given by the social services for taxes and what not some kind of 'we're having computer issues and are trying to get it fixed, we put in information the end of August and got a reply to it the 4th of september but we still can't do anything blah blah blah blah' bullshit of stuff when she called to ask about it. So we're battling the place that SHOULD be paying people out that goes between the 'boss' and me that takes the measures to take out the proper taxes and all that.
And then comes the whole insurance thing. A couple of weeks ago (about a week before the 15th) Camera Man talks to the guy at the claim department about my wage payout, asking if everything should be in order to start paying it out on the 15th (their papers state they pay out 2x's a month, the 1st and the 15th) and yea, they should have everything in order. I wait til the 17th, still nothing. Call again, find out that he 'can't read the copy of my pay check stub' and shit *I* can read it but no don't bother contacting me about not being able to read it. So that day I go out to get all the copies of my check stubs which took since April to get any except 1 of them from the boss, scan it, email it in FULL format (2000+ pixels) and ok then he could read it.
Now comes Friday last week, STILL no payout. I start calling around 4pm to the claims office, again for god knows only how many times now, am not able to talk to the main guy in charge of my claim. So a friendly gentleman was kind enough to work hard to get all the paper work that seems to STILL of been missing in order. From the paper that stated my health insurance wasn't going to pay me because the insurance of work took it on to a couple of missed doctor papers to state that I was due to still be off work. Friday SHOULD have had a pay out again but nooooo, I get an email Monday morning stating that were was still missing papers for work leave from the doctor, I sent them off back in the email, but then something else is that the guy is asking (we're back on the head guy now BTW) for is my boss's bank account number as well. Now, sorry but I have nothing to do with him or his 'bank'... I'm not a manager, I don't have the title, I don't have the training and I don't have the pay for it. If he wants to get paid back, HE has to take the steps to get paid back, it is of none of my business nor worry if he doe or does not want to. BUT for what ever reason, the insurance says if they don't have his account number then I don't get paid either because 'that is just how it works'.
That is a bunch of horse shit and again something else I'm fighting with my union against. All in all by now being almost the end of September, I am owed 2 months worth of wages (about 2400 euro give or take) plus the 400euro roughly of the messed up July check and the eco checks of 200euro.... in total of almost 3000euro worth of funds. I'm hurting, I'm stressed, my head doesn't work the way it should be and now on top of it my position at work is being fucked with. I'm digging into savings which shouldn't have had to of happened because the whole insurance thing should have been done MONTHS ago and *sigh* it's just all piling up on me.
So my dears, I hope you can understand and have some patience with me. EMAIL me if you don't see something right on The Web Site or contact me some how. It gives me a reminder that something isn't right or I forgot something and will correct it within 24hrs usually. Remember, I'm not JUST the model behind my site, I'm also the designer, owner, webmaster and what not. I do EVERYTHING for the site short of hosting it! You will only talk to me... so never worry of 3rd party stuff.
Ok, I'm off my rant/rage.... I hope you now understand how I could forget the update from Sunday, I mean I am trying to live a normal life, heal and all of that on top of all the legal battling I'm trying to do as well. Be patient with me. If you want to help, the best thing you can do is grab a membership if you haven't already, grab even one of those 3 or 6 month memberships I offer, check out my gift page or even drop me some gift bonds through Amazon. Everything can help and I'm always very thankful for it all. *KISSES*
Now the reason behind this, and bare with me as it's a bit of a tale to be told. Firstly, most of you that have read my blog here, know that a couple of months ago I had an accident on the way to work which caused a mild concussion and due to that caused things like temp lose of eye sight in my left eye, dizziness related to the accident and my vision, massive problems with my short term memory, very very bad headaches and then on top of it problems now because of all the extra stress and the lack of time I'm being given to reduce my stress and heal, it's only taken longer then I would like for it to heal but it also get set back a bit every time someone stresses me out even more.
Needless to say, Friday back fired the whole healing deal that I've made leaps and bonds in because my 'boss' is trying to give me my 2 week notice... as in he is trying to fire me.
First and foremost, he's doing it totally against the rules. Giving me 2 different reasons from one that is stated on paper and the other verbally as to why he is firing me. The one on paper as far as I know is not legal because he did it in french and by the laws, paperwork either needs to be in the language of the staff or the language of where the head business is.... in this case flemish/dutch. The reason on paper though is against the working law because it states due not being there which he can't fire me openly for because the 'not being there' is completely by medical leave and doctors. The 'other' reason which was verbal to me (and Camera Man as I brought him with Friday as my translator and short term memory just in case) was that 'the business isn't doing so well and he has to restructure'... or in short get rid of employees that he can't afford because of money issues. This too is not totally legal as there was someone hired after me to 'fill in' while I was gone which should of then had a temp contract that would end at the time I was able to fully come back or he would be found another position within the work place other than mine. Not to mention all of the changes and money he put toward 'other' things for the work place that would cost my wage a month or more such as new tables/chairs, cable installment, a new LCD TV and some other things I can think of.
With ALL of that above, I'm now, along with my union, going to fight it to the teeth. I will admit, especially now, I was not looking forward to going back anyhow because all of people, including the boss himself, are too young. I think the oldest just turned 24 other then the boss who is still just 30yrs old. Ok he has a head on his shoulders for business but not in the way of how to conduct a crew that is of mixed years it seems.
On top of that though there are 3 other money/work related issues going on, firstly from my prior boss I am missing (mostly because I didn't know about it) something we have out here called eco-checks. They are basically extra money up to the sum of 250euro for the highest but in the form of checks that can be used on 'eco friendly' items. I am entitled to them by law by making so much per year. Then it's calculated on one of those 'you made this much, times this much and divided by this much' type scale but when it comes down to it I'm owed about 200euro worth for the 2.5yrs I worked with them. So that is another thing happening not related to the work leave I'm on.
Related to the work leave I'm on, my July pay (the first month I was off due to the accident) was messed up because it was marked down as a 'sickness' instead of an accident. The difference between the 2... first one has a pay out of 2/3rd my wage and the other is 100% my wage. No matter, the insurance company has taken it on as a claim and being covered so the boss even gets paid back for that first month.... how ever I'm still sitting here out that 400+ euro. As of Monday, the union was given by the social services for taxes and what not some kind of 'we're having computer issues and are trying to get it fixed, we put in information the end of August and got a reply to it the 4th of september but we still can't do anything blah blah blah blah' bullshit of stuff when she called to ask about it. So we're battling the place that SHOULD be paying people out that goes between the 'boss' and me that takes the measures to take out the proper taxes and all that.
And then comes the whole insurance thing. A couple of weeks ago (about a week before the 15th) Camera Man talks to the guy at the claim department about my wage payout, asking if everything should be in order to start paying it out on the 15th (their papers state they pay out 2x's a month, the 1st and the 15th) and yea, they should have everything in order. I wait til the 17th, still nothing. Call again, find out that he 'can't read the copy of my pay check stub' and shit *I* can read it but no don't bother contacting me about not being able to read it. So that day I go out to get all the copies of my check stubs which took since April to get any except 1 of them from the boss, scan it, email it in FULL format (2000+ pixels) and ok then he could read it.
Now comes Friday last week, STILL no payout. I start calling around 4pm to the claims office, again for god knows only how many times now, am not able to talk to the main guy in charge of my claim. So a friendly gentleman was kind enough to work hard to get all the paper work that seems to STILL of been missing in order. From the paper that stated my health insurance wasn't going to pay me because the insurance of work took it on to a couple of missed doctor papers to state that I was due to still be off work. Friday SHOULD have had a pay out again but nooooo, I get an email Monday morning stating that were was still missing papers for work leave from the doctor, I sent them off back in the email, but then something else is that the guy is asking (we're back on the head guy now BTW) for is my boss's bank account number as well. Now, sorry but I have nothing to do with him or his 'bank'... I'm not a manager, I don't have the title, I don't have the training and I don't have the pay for it. If he wants to get paid back, HE has to take the steps to get paid back, it is of none of my business nor worry if he doe or does not want to. BUT for what ever reason, the insurance says if they don't have his account number then I don't get paid either because 'that is just how it works'.
That is a bunch of horse shit and again something else I'm fighting with my union against. All in all by now being almost the end of September, I am owed 2 months worth of wages (about 2400 euro give or take) plus the 400euro roughly of the messed up July check and the eco checks of 200euro.... in total of almost 3000euro worth of funds. I'm hurting, I'm stressed, my head doesn't work the way it should be and now on top of it my position at work is being fucked with. I'm digging into savings which shouldn't have had to of happened because the whole insurance thing should have been done MONTHS ago and *sigh* it's just all piling up on me.
So my dears, I hope you can understand and have some patience with me. EMAIL me if you don't see something right on The Web Site or contact me some how. It gives me a reminder that something isn't right or I forgot something and will correct it within 24hrs usually. Remember, I'm not JUST the model behind my site, I'm also the designer, owner, webmaster and what not. I do EVERYTHING for the site short of hosting it! You will only talk to me... so never worry of 3rd party stuff.
Ok, I'm off my rant/rage.... I hope you now understand how I could forget the update from Sunday, I mean I am trying to live a normal life, heal and all of that on top of all the legal battling I'm trying to do as well. Be patient with me. If you want to help, the best thing you can do is grab a membership if you haven't already, grab even one of those 3 or 6 month memberships I offer, check out my gift page or even drop me some gift bonds through Amazon. Everything can help and I'm always very thankful for it all. *KISSES*
Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Talking With Me - Vent/Rant
Ok listen up here, if you are wanting to talk with me by some sort of IM or by E-mail and I've been kind enough to respond to such a response, you will *NOT* disrespect me in any form or fashion. I do not know you and you do not know me. I am giving you the PRIVILEG of MY time spent on you because YOU wanted it.
If you EVER think for a moment that I am there any time YOU want me to be just because 'oh she's online now, she better talk to me' you have something else coming.
You are NOTHING to me do you understand?? I am GIVING you my time and you best understand it is precious to me. I have VERY little 'free' time and just because I 'might' be sitting online some time some where with a browser or IM open, does *NOT* mean I am actually sitting here twiddling my thumbs in any remote hope that someone will log in and have a chat with me.
I have a REAL life outside my web life. I have a husband, an aging mother & father, a couple of sisters back in the states and you best believe there is a MASSIVE time difference between me and you if you are in the USA any where from 5 to 9hrs BEHIND me! If you are just waking for your day, I am most likely starting to prepare for my evening to start which included getting my kitchen in order, taking care of house hold choirs and getting ready to cook dinner or perhaps even already cooking it.
Now if you still want to chat with me HAVE A BIT OF FUCKING PATIENCE! I am not your toy or pawn to just drop everything because YOU wanted to chat with me. If I am here, if I can type, if *I* have time to chat or if I have the want even to chat, I will respond.... if not then there is most likely a reason and I will respond when I have the time or want.
Now get off your frigging high horse and remind yourself I am HUMAN behind this computer and stop trying to think you're gonna get away with giving me any kind of guilt trip because OMFG *I* didn't write you back *RIGHT* now.
/rant
We now return you to your normal every day perving. Thank you for your time and patience and try to remember, when you speak to a LADY such as myself, have the decent kindness of some respect shown toward her.
If you EVER think for a moment that I am there any time YOU want me to be just because 'oh she's online now, she better talk to me' you have something else coming.
You are NOTHING to me do you understand?? I am GIVING you my time and you best understand it is precious to me. I have VERY little 'free' time and just because I 'might' be sitting online some time some where with a browser or IM open, does *NOT* mean I am actually sitting here twiddling my thumbs in any remote hope that someone will log in and have a chat with me.
I have a REAL life outside my web life. I have a husband, an aging mother & father, a couple of sisters back in the states and you best believe there is a MASSIVE time difference between me and you if you are in the USA any where from 5 to 9hrs BEHIND me! If you are just waking for your day, I am most likely starting to prepare for my evening to start which included getting my kitchen in order, taking care of house hold choirs and getting ready to cook dinner or perhaps even already cooking it.
Now if you still want to chat with me HAVE A BIT OF FUCKING PATIENCE! I am not your toy or pawn to just drop everything because YOU wanted to chat with me. If I am here, if I can type, if *I* have time to chat or if I have the want even to chat, I will respond.... if not then there is most likely a reason and I will respond when I have the time or want.
Now get off your frigging high horse and remind yourself I am HUMAN behind this computer and stop trying to think you're gonna get away with giving me any kind of guilt trip because OMFG *I* didn't write you back *RIGHT* now.
/rant
We now return you to your normal every day perving. Thank you for your time and patience and try to remember, when you speak to a LADY such as myself, have the decent kindness of some respect shown toward her.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
The Beginning Of School
Aaaaa the sign of another session to be changing, the kids around here have gone back to school as of September 1st. It's also a reminder to me that I'm coming up shortly here on living in Belgium for *13yrs*! I was due to leave the good ol' US of A the day the 9/11 attack happened. I remember being at a shop buying some last minute goodies to take with me for my soon to become new family, checking out and having the lady at the register ask me after hearing that I was heading to Belgium if I had heard the news about the plane hi-jacking that had just happened. I thought she was just out to scare/worry me since I mentioned I never had flown yet either.
I got to my car, there was an eerie silence in the packing lot with exception of a bunch of cars that had their radios tuned into which ever radio station they were listening to... but none were playing music. They all had their 'live news' feeds going. I started up my car and sure enough my radio station had it too :( I remember hitting the pavement in the parking lot, bag still in hand now spilled on said pavement and I must have gone whiter then a freshly laundered sheet.
At that moment in time, it was still way before the towers had fallen, before people knew what kind of damage had been done or would have happen. For me it was a time of 'OMG I was just going to leave that afternoon to finally be with man of my dreams'. A sudden rush of 'oh shit, he has no idea where I am, what I'm doing, if I am on my flight or not and 100 other things dealing with him' and I rushed my way back home as fast as I could legally to call him.
Call me selfish, call me a bitch, call me what ever you want at this point but I was also only in my early 20's and finally having found a love I would soon be calling my own. One that has waited almost 3months for me to come to him after making the choice to leave my life in the states. All I cared about at the time was that I was no longer leaving the day of September 1st, 2001 and at that moment in time not sure when I would be either.
I left something like a week or so later. Spent 9hrs past the time that the new time had been marked as sitting and worrying in the airport lounge. Only thing really keeping me from losing it was the voice of my beloved every hr or so through phone cards and a public pay phone and the fact that within I hoped 24hrs I would be in his arms. I got on my plane needless to say despite every thing in my body telling me to no do it and landed safely first in Germany for a connection flight and then in Belgium where my beloved Camera Man was awaiting me with open arms and a sturdy force to collapse against after almost 30hrs of traveling in total. I trusted him with my life as he took me through this strange world I have never seen, never really heard of before meeting him and had all these strange words I have no idea what they meant. I drifted off a bit in the car ride back to the city he lived in and for the first night, we stayed at a hotel room before being forced to meet my soon to be mother-in-law.
I still to this day would not change a thing of what happened, because of it were not have happened, I would not be where I am in my life today. Things always happen for a reason and I believe there will always be a reason if we see it straight away or not. I am here, I am healthy, I am happy and I am enjoying life. I moved my parents here for their retirement and they too are enjoy their new life here. All is good, all is well, I have a roof over my head, I have a computer under my finger tips, I have food as much as I want on the table and a loving caring husband beside me through think, thin and all the good.
That is my 'how did I get here' story. Hope you got to know me a bit better and got to know also why I'm a bit harder core then most people in this world. I had to be, I had to survive and to do so I had to be quite cautious in my journey.
I got to my car, there was an eerie silence in the packing lot with exception of a bunch of cars that had their radios tuned into which ever radio station they were listening to... but none were playing music. They all had their 'live news' feeds going. I started up my car and sure enough my radio station had it too :( I remember hitting the pavement in the parking lot, bag still in hand now spilled on said pavement and I must have gone whiter then a freshly laundered sheet.
At that moment in time, it was still way before the towers had fallen, before people knew what kind of damage had been done or would have happen. For me it was a time of 'OMG I was just going to leave that afternoon to finally be with man of my dreams'. A sudden rush of 'oh shit, he has no idea where I am, what I'm doing, if I am on my flight or not and 100 other things dealing with him' and I rushed my way back home as fast as I could legally to call him.
Call me selfish, call me a bitch, call me what ever you want at this point but I was also only in my early 20's and finally having found a love I would soon be calling my own. One that has waited almost 3months for me to come to him after making the choice to leave my life in the states. All I cared about at the time was that I was no longer leaving the day of September 1st, 2001 and at that moment in time not sure when I would be either.
I left something like a week or so later. Spent 9hrs past the time that the new time had been marked as sitting and worrying in the airport lounge. Only thing really keeping me from losing it was the voice of my beloved every hr or so through phone cards and a public pay phone and the fact that within I hoped 24hrs I would be in his arms. I got on my plane needless to say despite every thing in my body telling me to no do it and landed safely first in Germany for a connection flight and then in Belgium where my beloved Camera Man was awaiting me with open arms and a sturdy force to collapse against after almost 30hrs of traveling in total. I trusted him with my life as he took me through this strange world I have never seen, never really heard of before meeting him and had all these strange words I have no idea what they meant. I drifted off a bit in the car ride back to the city he lived in and for the first night, we stayed at a hotel room before being forced to meet my soon to be mother-in-law.
I still to this day would not change a thing of what happened, because of it were not have happened, I would not be where I am in my life today. Things always happen for a reason and I believe there will always be a reason if we see it straight away or not. I am here, I am healthy, I am happy and I am enjoying life. I moved my parents here for their retirement and they too are enjoy their new life here. All is good, all is well, I have a roof over my head, I have a computer under my finger tips, I have food as much as I want on the table and a loving caring husband beside me through think, thin and all the good.
That is my 'how did I get here' story. Hope you got to know me a bit better and got to know also why I'm a bit harder core then most people in this world. I had to be, I had to survive and to do so I had to be quite cautious in my journey.
Friday, August 29, 2014
At Home Sushi Buffet
This was quite a few weeks ago when Camera Man and I were having our fun with the whirl pool hotel (that is still there but we need to take a break from it and do some other stuff too or the only thing we'll have on stock is that hotel... not exactly good either) but with all the posts I've had between this was kind of put on hold.
Now that I have some spare time and it's been a few days since I last posted I thought I'd share with you how Camera Man and I liked to end a wonderfully hot, sexy and sexy filled day out.... sushi night! As many of you know by now, I can't eat gluten products so that also means I have very very little in the way of places I can go out to get something out. Right now that is limited to what I trust of 2 places, a kind of place like you would think of a school cafeteria type situation but then more advanced and a lot better for you and a sushi place that I've gotten to trust quite a lot. The first is nice if I want a grilled hamburger or chicken breast as they have an open grill but that about all I have for selection while the sushi place has lots open to me as long as it's not battered, there is no artificial crab and they leave out things that have soy sauce (it's wheat based for some reason).
This last time we ordered from there I asked them if they would come up with something different and gave them a price range. What they came up with was ok but won't be my beloved sunrise rolls (also shown below). The one was more of a dessert type roll then a main meal with apple in it, the next was a mix of different fish and then of course my sunrise roll, that's the one with all the salmon so it's the pink on in the middle of everything. All of the dishes include avocado in some form with exception of Camera Man's combo dish.
On the right hand side is Camera Man's dishes and he usually gets a combo mix which is the mixed package you see and the one right next to it is a in-out roll with eel and avocado. It was a wonderful meal and REALLY filling, so much so that I had left overs for the next morning *yum*. And the little glass bottle on the table is Sake... what better to go with sushi!
Now that I have some spare time and it's been a few days since I last posted I thought I'd share with you how Camera Man and I liked to end a wonderfully hot, sexy and sexy filled day out.... sushi night! As many of you know by now, I can't eat gluten products so that also means I have very very little in the way of places I can go out to get something out. Right now that is limited to what I trust of 2 places, a kind of place like you would think of a school cafeteria type situation but then more advanced and a lot better for you and a sushi place that I've gotten to trust quite a lot. The first is nice if I want a grilled hamburger or chicken breast as they have an open grill but that about all I have for selection while the sushi place has lots open to me as long as it's not battered, there is no artificial crab and they leave out things that have soy sauce (it's wheat based for some reason).
This last time we ordered from there I asked them if they would come up with something different and gave them a price range. What they came up with was ok but won't be my beloved sunrise rolls (also shown below). The one was more of a dessert type roll then a main meal with apple in it, the next was a mix of different fish and then of course my sunrise roll, that's the one with all the salmon so it's the pink on in the middle of everything. All of the dishes include avocado in some form with exception of Camera Man's combo dish.
On the right hand side is Camera Man's dishes and he usually gets a combo mix which is the mixed package you see and the one right next to it is a in-out roll with eel and avocado. It was a wonderful meal and REALLY filling, so much so that I had left overs for the next morning *yum*. And the little glass bottle on the table is Sake... what better to go with sushi!
Thursday, August 7, 2014
Favorite Food - Quality Street
I have 2 entries to make about some feed that I love along with some photos so it was a toss up between which to post first but since I'm sitting here nibbling on some of these I thought I'd post about them first.
I, like I think most women bbw or not, love chocolate at least a bit. I am of course no acception ;) For the moment my chocolate fix happens to be a nice big tin of Quality Street chocolates.
I like this mix so much because it comes with 12 different kinds within what ever tin/box I buy. Although I wish they'd include more of some over more then the others, I really do enjoy all of them when it comes down to it. I do admit I don't care for the little caramel 'medallion' ones as they have no chocolate and are a hardish caramel. I like caramels that are soft or even liquidish like Rolos are but I can't have those due to a factory of gluten warning on them.
You'll see from the photos I took the bottom image... that is the little disc paper that is in every tin, when you buy a box, it's on the box instead. And in the order that you see above from left to right, top to bottom :)
1. Orange Chocolate Crunch (1 of my top 2 favorites, I have a huge weakness for orange/chocolate things!) - milk chocolate with little candies orange crisps mixed in
2. Orange Cream (the 2nd of my favorite 2) - orange cream in milk chocolate
3. Noisette Triangle - milk chocolate with praline filling
4. Milk Chocolate Block - just what it says
5. Caramel Swirl - softish caremal in milk chocolate (their version of Rolo in short)
6. Strawberry Dream - Strawberry cream in milk chocolate
7. Toffee Penny (the one I don't really care for) - Just a hardish piece of caramel without chocolate at all
8. Toffee Deluxe - chewy caramel in milk chocolate (think Rolos on steroids)
9. Coconut Eclair - coconut paste in milk chocolate (their version of Mounds bars but finer coconut)
10. Toffee Finger (don't mind this one because it has chocolate) - hardish caramel covered in milk chocolate
11. Fudge - fudge fondue in milk chocolate
12. Hazelnut In Caramel - a whole hazel nut encased in soft caramel and then in milk chocolate
It's a pretty good mix over all and not too expensive. A tin like this of roughly a pound worth of chocolates runs me between 6euro and 7euro. It's a good go too when I want chocolate and I know it's gluten free! So there you have it, another yummy I like. I have another post to be made about some food I like but we'll save that for another time. *KISSES*
I, like I think most women bbw or not, love chocolate at least a bit. I am of course no acception ;) For the moment my chocolate fix happens to be a nice big tin of Quality Street chocolates.
I like this mix so much because it comes with 12 different kinds within what ever tin/box I buy. Although I wish they'd include more of some over more then the others, I really do enjoy all of them when it comes down to it. I do admit I don't care for the little caramel 'medallion' ones as they have no chocolate and are a hardish caramel. I like caramels that are soft or even liquidish like Rolos are but I can't have those due to a factory of gluten warning on them.
You'll see from the photos I took the bottom image... that is the little disc paper that is in every tin, when you buy a box, it's on the box instead. And in the order that you see above from left to right, top to bottom :)
1. Orange Chocolate Crunch (1 of my top 2 favorites, I have a huge weakness for orange/chocolate things!) - milk chocolate with little candies orange crisps mixed in
2. Orange Cream (the 2nd of my favorite 2) - orange cream in milk chocolate
3. Noisette Triangle - milk chocolate with praline filling
4. Milk Chocolate Block - just what it says
5. Caramel Swirl - softish caremal in milk chocolate (their version of Rolo in short)
6. Strawberry Dream - Strawberry cream in milk chocolate
7. Toffee Penny (the one I don't really care for) - Just a hardish piece of caramel without chocolate at all
8. Toffee Deluxe - chewy caramel in milk chocolate (think Rolos on steroids)
9. Coconut Eclair - coconut paste in milk chocolate (their version of Mounds bars but finer coconut)
10. Toffee Finger (don't mind this one because it has chocolate) - hardish caramel covered in milk chocolate
11. Fudge - fudge fondue in milk chocolate
12. Hazelnut In Caramel - a whole hazel nut encased in soft caramel and then in milk chocolate
It's a pretty good mix over all and not too expensive. A tin like this of roughly a pound worth of chocolates runs me between 6euro and 7euro. It's a good go too when I want chocolate and I know it's gluten free! So there you have it, another yummy I like. I have another post to be made about some food I like but we'll save that for another time. *KISSES*
Monday, July 28, 2014
Friday, July 11, 2014
Cooking At Night
Although I did this couple weeks ago when I first got stuck at home with this damn injury, there is still something soothing and surreal about making something you know that no matter how you make it, will be yummy, refreshing and enjoyable when you get to eat it the next day! One of the recent nights I was making fresh home-made fruit salad with sour cream/orange juice dressing. I put in 2 different melons, raspberries, strawberries, canned mandarins, blue berries, and doughnut peaches (also known as Saturn peaches). The wonderful sweet/sour fruits mixed with a cup of sour cream (this is a HUGE bowl, my biggest plastic storage bowls!), half cup of orange juice and a couple tablespoons of honey. This was one of my childhood favorites that my mother use to make any time it was hot out and we could afford all the fresh fruit that goes into it! If anyone wants the recipe, don't bother to ask as there really isn't a true recipe! What ever fresh fruit you want excluding watermelon (or any really watery type melons) and no acidic types such as pineapples. Bananas go well but then be prepared to use up the salad in about 2days or they will go to mush and turn colors. Mix up the sour cream, orange juice and honey up and pour over, mix well and serve well chilled.
So yea, this is how I spent a good hour one late night after Camera Man went to bed... it took that long to cut the melons without cutting myself without having much in the way of depth vision :P
So yea, this is how I spent a good hour one late night after Camera Man went to bed... it took that long to cut the melons without cutting myself without having much in the way of depth vision :P
Wednesday, July 2, 2014
In and out of work - the story continues
It's been a long month and I hope it comes to an end soon. I was back to work for about a week before I found myself going head on with some work construction that was happening around the corner that did a serious amount of damage. Most every thing on my left side got hit from my ankle (not too badly though), to my shin, my back, my lower arm (quite badly) and the worst of it all, my head around my eye.
Because of this damage to my head, I have lost about 80% of my vision on my left eye and have been pulled off work. At first it was only a few days but then over the weekend, I kept losing more and more of my sight. Monday saw doc again, then saw the eye doctor to make sure my eye was ok and all the doctors think that I had a minor concussion. Now why the hell the ER doctor didn't do or say anything about it is beyond me but you can actually make out the line where my sunglasses got slammed in my face and the fact that I don't remember anything except tripping and kind of coming to wrapped firmly around a pole for support kind of means that something happened to my head *shrug*.
Anyhow, there are a couple of photos attached that I took from my webcam (sorry for the quality, can only handle so much brightness atm) showing what it looked like from about 8hrs after and then again from a day or 2 ago. Atm, I can't see anything from the sides/top/bottom, it's like looking through a telescope. Yesterday was the first time that the 'end' of that telescope started to become less fuzzy so there is a change.
That also means of course I'm going to have to find some way to do updates on low energy and without my face included :P not exactly the way I want to look on my updates! But I will figure something out. Kiss and horny love to everyone and keep a watch, I always bring something new for your enjoyment!
Because of this damage to my head, I have lost about 80% of my vision on my left eye and have been pulled off work. At first it was only a few days but then over the weekend, I kept losing more and more of my sight. Monday saw doc again, then saw the eye doctor to make sure my eye was ok and all the doctors think that I had a minor concussion. Now why the hell the ER doctor didn't do or say anything about it is beyond me but you can actually make out the line where my sunglasses got slammed in my face and the fact that I don't remember anything except tripping and kind of coming to wrapped firmly around a pole for support kind of means that something happened to my head *shrug*.
Anyhow, there are a couple of photos attached that I took from my webcam (sorry for the quality, can only handle so much brightness atm) showing what it looked like from about 8hrs after and then again from a day or 2 ago. Atm, I can't see anything from the sides/top/bottom, it's like looking through a telescope. Yesterday was the first time that the 'end' of that telescope started to become less fuzzy so there is a change.
That also means of course I'm going to have to find some way to do updates on low energy and without my face included :P not exactly the way I want to look on my updates! But I will figure something out. Kiss and horny love to everyone and keep a watch, I always bring something new for your enjoyment!
(about 8hr after the accident)
(about 4 days after)
Friday, June 13, 2014
Screwed Up My Back/Misc Work Stuffs
Man what a DULL week! It's not exactly how I want to be spending a 'week off' from my real life job but a few nights ago we had a nice set of thunderstorms that rolled through in the wee hours of the night/morning. Those storms produced quite some loud hits of thunder and of course being as jumpy as I am, the first one or so that hit with my window sitting wide open due to the warmth made me wake up to hitting the hard tiling floor square on my ass. I didn't think much of it except ok it's storming, close window and go back to bed. This was about 3am... I get up around 6:30am to go to work and when I woke for this shift, I tried to get up like I normally do and instantly knew I fucked up my lower back again! FUCK! So I more slithered out of bed, messaged my boss to let him know what happened, waited til the 8:30am walk-in clinic to open and they put me off through Saturday along with some heavy ass pain killers and something to protect my tummy from those meds. I HATE these meds, they make me feel sick and even more jumpy.
Anyhow, this is not how I wanted to spend a week off :( I hope the summer proves to be better. I've been working now for almost 8weeks (the 22nd will be 2months) and none of us have seen an actual pay check or pay stub. Not sure what is exactly going on but since I had some time off anyhow, I took some of it to sign up to the worker's union and get some information. I found out some nice information that my boss and I are going to have to sit down and talk about. Some of those points are.....
~ My current pay according to my contract is at least 100euro a month too little according to the laws. It might even be as much as 500 but not sure how I go about getting that official but at least going to show him the papers stating his current wage is too little.
~ He will have to pay out Eco Check based on a formula for next year based off our hours this year.
~ He has to pay a 'cleaning' fee every day of 1.62euro to each employee if he doesn't take on the cleaning of uniforms but requires us to be cleaning them. Heck I can even push that he pays an extra 1.62euro per day on top of that for the lack of me having a uniform as well.
~ He HAS to get pay straightened out and that I do have a right to an est time and not just a 'before summer' response. It's within my rights as the employee to know when pay is expected to happen.
~ Even without pay, I should be receiving pay check stubs... those I have yet to get either.
Those are the top of that I found out that those special Eco Checks were suppose to of been paid out also through the intrim I was working for the past 2 year proper to this. Again based on a formula and how many days I put in the year before. We figured just for last year's days I should get about 90euro worth of these checks and that is just for the half year that I worked last, not including the year before.
Anyhow... so this is my real life lately. I'm in a fair amount of pain, I'm more then annoyed at sitting here all day because I can't do much else and really look forward to getting back to work where at least the days go by a bit faster and I'm kept busy both mentally and physically.
Anyhow, this is not how I wanted to spend a week off :( I hope the summer proves to be better. I've been working now for almost 8weeks (the 22nd will be 2months) and none of us have seen an actual pay check or pay stub. Not sure what is exactly going on but since I had some time off anyhow, I took some of it to sign up to the worker's union and get some information. I found out some nice information that my boss and I are going to have to sit down and talk about. Some of those points are.....
~ My current pay according to my contract is at least 100euro a month too little according to the laws. It might even be as much as 500 but not sure how I go about getting that official but at least going to show him the papers stating his current wage is too little.
~ He will have to pay out Eco Check based on a formula for next year based off our hours this year.
~ He has to pay a 'cleaning' fee every day of 1.62euro to each employee if he doesn't take on the cleaning of uniforms but requires us to be cleaning them. Heck I can even push that he pays an extra 1.62euro per day on top of that for the lack of me having a uniform as well.
~ He HAS to get pay straightened out and that I do have a right to an est time and not just a 'before summer' response. It's within my rights as the employee to know when pay is expected to happen.
~ Even without pay, I should be receiving pay check stubs... those I have yet to get either.
Those are the top of that I found out that those special Eco Checks were suppose to of been paid out also through the intrim I was working for the past 2 year proper to this. Again based on a formula and how many days I put in the year before. We figured just for last year's days I should get about 90euro worth of these checks and that is just for the half year that I worked last, not including the year before.
Anyhow... so this is my real life lately. I'm in a fair amount of pain, I'm more then annoyed at sitting here all day because I can't do much else and really look forward to getting back to work where at least the days go by a bit faster and I'm kept busy both mentally and physically.
Tuesday, June 3, 2014
June BBQ
The calm before the storm as it were this morning. I have a hard work day ahead of me but at least it will be easier then I expected. I thought I was going to have to work the next 5days straight but I must have over looked that I already have a day off tomorrow which will be very badly needed because of having way too many stress issues with yesterday's day off.
So this morning I've come to share a few of the photos from the small BBQ Camera Man and I had with my folks. Just some of the food we had but I forgot to get photos of the shrimp and potato salad *shrug* oh well. But this is just some of the stuff I like to eat ;) Sure there is tons more stuff but this is what was for the day. We had hamburgers (the yellowish stuff on top is squeeze style liquid butter stuff instead of using oil), salmon, huge ass mushrooms with garlic butter and there were sausages for every one else but me as they have gluten.
I hope we'll have another BBQ or 2 before the summer is over but I guess that just will have to wait and see how the summer goes and work. These photos were all taken with my smart phone btw, so I certainly will have to make sure I get more 'sneak' photos in there from time to time! *KISSES*
So this morning I've come to share a few of the photos from the small BBQ Camera Man and I had with my folks. Just some of the food we had but I forgot to get photos of the shrimp and potato salad *shrug* oh well. But this is just some of the stuff I like to eat ;) Sure there is tons more stuff but this is what was for the day. We had hamburgers (the yellowish stuff on top is squeeze style liquid butter stuff instead of using oil), salmon, huge ass mushrooms with garlic butter and there were sausages for every one else but me as they have gluten.
I hope we'll have another BBQ or 2 before the summer is over but I guess that just will have to wait and see how the summer goes and work. These photos were all taken with my smart phone btw, so I certainly will have to make sure I get more 'sneak' photos in there from time to time! *KISSES*
Saturday, May 31, 2014
Today's Plans
Hello again :) I know that I have to make a new logo for both here and my Member's Area but that will have to wait until my day off tomorrow. Work is always keeping me busy and my schedule I hate to say it keeps getting changed. At first it was going good and I was having opening - 4 or so shifts but the last couple of weeks it's been more and more closing shifts which I hate. Butttt today is a day off and yesterday before leaving for work, Camera Man and I made plans to have a nice BBQ with my family. I'll see if I can't snap some shots off while I'm there enjoying the day and lots of great food.
Some things we'll be throwing on the grill include...
~ Hamburgers
~ Salmon
~ HUGE ass mushrooms
~ Pineapple
~ Chicken sausages
And some stuff we're gonna have along with will include my mother making some home-made potato salad, cutting up a watermelon and having some already cooked shrimp in their shells (will have to get some photos of this that is for sure!) along with some nummy drinks like raspberry lemonade and sparkling apple juice for us that don't drink drink and some heavy Belgian beer for Camera Man who does.
If I manage to get some photos, I'll certainly be around to post them here in the blog! For now it's still before 8am here and we won't be leaving until close to 12pm so I might go and get a bit more beauty rest! I hope you all enjoy this week's update while I enjoy my BBQ and eat all that yummy food! *SMOOCH*
Some things we'll be throwing on the grill include...
~ Hamburgers
~ Salmon
~ HUGE ass mushrooms
~ Pineapple
~ Chicken sausages
And some stuff we're gonna have along with will include my mother making some home-made potato salad, cutting up a watermelon and having some already cooked shrimp in their shells (will have to get some photos of this that is for sure!) along with some nummy drinks like raspberry lemonade and sparkling apple juice for us that don't drink drink and some heavy Belgian beer for Camera Man who does.
If I manage to get some photos, I'll certainly be around to post them here in the blog! For now it's still before 8am here and we won't be leaving until close to 12pm so I might go and get a bit more beauty rest! I hope you all enjoy this week's update while I enjoy my BBQ and eat all that yummy food! *SMOOCH*
Tuesday, May 6, 2014
Hidden Turn On/Fantasy
Only those that have really gotten to know me seem to know my true turn on's and fantasies. Today I'm here to tell you a bit more about me and what makes me tick or in this case what gets me wet!
Today I'm sitting here while writing this with my favorite vibrator working it's wonder between my legs whilst sitting against my clit. I took out my toy when I decided to open a website profile I visit often as of late to aid me in getting off heavy and hard.
This profile is well pissing content. It's a solo male showing off his cock, how hard he gets while pissing and even how excited he gets from it all because he just has to cum right after. So this brought me to write about this. I have a turn on that not many know and that is I'm into watersports (pissing). I'm not into giving but into solo men, men in need to pissing, just letting go in the way of a fantasy of a nicely hung man that is also into the whole watersports scene coming inside my/his apartment or having had found a place outside that we were to shoot, having to piss so badly that he just had to wipe it out and already while doing so had started to piss... demanding that I come and help or even just grunting because he had to so badly but then was so turned on by the fact that there I was watching him as he was helpless but to stand there with his cock growing hard while pissing in front of me.
I also love to be pissed on... specially when I know shortly after that I'm going to get a hot load of cum to top it all off. And yes I do like it full body but LOVE it across my pussy and even in my pussy if he can handle being hard enough while inside but still relaxed enough to let go (or having to go so badly be can't hold it!).
So there you go... today I'll be getting off to something of a guy pissing for me. Are you into watersports at all? Do you like the thought of spraying my pussy or me with your juices or even just having me watch you piss with your rock hard cock and then helping you get off? I'm looking for men that want to enjoy this with me and film it if you are any where close to me!
Today I'm sitting here while writing this with my favorite vibrator working it's wonder between my legs whilst sitting against my clit. I took out my toy when I decided to open a website profile I visit often as of late to aid me in getting off heavy and hard.
This profile is well pissing content. It's a solo male showing off his cock, how hard he gets while pissing and even how excited he gets from it all because he just has to cum right after. So this brought me to write about this. I have a turn on that not many know and that is I'm into watersports (pissing). I'm not into giving but into solo men, men in need to pissing, just letting go in the way of a fantasy of a nicely hung man that is also into the whole watersports scene coming inside my/his apartment or having had found a place outside that we were to shoot, having to piss so badly that he just had to wipe it out and already while doing so had started to piss... demanding that I come and help or even just grunting because he had to so badly but then was so turned on by the fact that there I was watching him as he was helpless but to stand there with his cock growing hard while pissing in front of me.
I also love to be pissed on... specially when I know shortly after that I'm going to get a hot load of cum to top it all off. And yes I do like it full body but LOVE it across my pussy and even in my pussy if he can handle being hard enough while inside but still relaxed enough to let go (or having to go so badly be can't hold it!).
So there you go... today I'll be getting off to something of a guy pissing for me. Are you into watersports at all? Do you like the thought of spraying my pussy or me with your juices or even just having me watch you piss with your rock hard cock and then helping you get off? I'm looking for men that want to enjoy this with me and film it if you are any where close to me!
Wednesday, April 23, 2014
Current Events - April 24th, 2014
Hello every one. I know I haven't been here a lot this week so I thought I'd drop in with a small message before going off again this morning.
Those that have been following me should know by now and if you are only just tuning in, this past week I finally started working again. Same store but new owners. Things are so far not too different but still every time you go into a new situation there are bond to be new things to learn and always the way the new owner wants them.
With that, so far it looks as though for the moment I have Sundays off... I should be having a 2nd day off but for now that is the day that Camera Man and I will have time off together in order to make content. Of course we'll be trying to make some as well between if after 8hrs on my feet will allow me to move enough to grab the glamor stuff I do! But with that said, update days will change slightly. Fridays worked well when I wasn't working but Fridays and Saturday are the busiest days of the week and I can not put my efforts into things on the web then.
So Sundays for now will be update day. I hope to see you on the flip side! I am REALLY glad to be back at work, I have a full time position contract and am very happy to be doing it this way then the way I was before. *SMOOCH*
Those that have been following me should know by now and if you are only just tuning in, this past week I finally started working again. Same store but new owners. Things are so far not too different but still every time you go into a new situation there are bond to be new things to learn and always the way the new owner wants them.
With that, so far it looks as though for the moment I have Sundays off... I should be having a 2nd day off but for now that is the day that Camera Man and I will have time off together in order to make content. Of course we'll be trying to make some as well between if after 8hrs on my feet will allow me to move enough to grab the glamor stuff I do! But with that said, update days will change slightly. Fridays worked well when I wasn't working but Fridays and Saturday are the busiest days of the week and I can not put my efforts into things on the web then.
So Sundays for now will be update day. I hope to see you on the flip side! I am REALLY glad to be back at work, I have a full time position contract and am very happy to be doing it this way then the way I was before. *SMOOCH*
Friday, April 18, 2014
My World The Last 6months
Hello all my wonderful peps... I'm here today to finally take the much needed time I need down. This is an entry to let you in on my world the last 6months of time. There seem to be people out there that really have no idea about the world now a days, they don't think past the computer screen and think that no one has anything in their real lives that should be coming before their online time. This is certainly not the case for a *LOT* of people and I am certainly no exception the last half of year.
Today was the first day I got to REALLY release myself and settle a bit. I had a good hard cry because it was just needed (sometimes it's needed for everyone, male or female) and because I have had such a rotten streak of luck the last few months. I finally had a 'good' break yesterday in all of the shit that I have been dealing with the last few months that made today the right day to relax and release. After that I feel like the world has been lifted from my shoulders and things I hope will look up from here on out. I'm so trying.
So what has been happening... let me take you back to start 6months ago until this month.
1) I lost my real life job. I wasn't fired, I didn't quite... the store I worked for... damn not worked... LIVED for day in and out for 2yrs of my life, went under. My last day of work without any notice to it at all was September 25th, 2013. This was the start of the worse 6months.
2) I gained almost 20kilo (45pounds roughly). I did *NOT* want this to happen but when you go from moving, bending, eating less, and all that for 8-10yrs a day, you don't gain weight. I was losing. My lowest weight was 143kilo or 315pounds. I was *SO* close to being under 300 pounds for the first time in 20yrs. Now I start over and from an even higher weight. My highest since living here, 167kilo until these last few months where I passed that by 5-6kilo and now sit at 173. This put me into quite a bit of depression and to be honest PAIN.
3) Camera Man and I have not had the best of times either. Fighting, spatting and the like more then being close. It doesn't make a lot of 'fun' times sexually or not. On camera or not either. This was made worse by the next event.
4) Fast forward until beginning of March when I told Camera Man that we had too much debt. We calculated it up and indeed decided it was best that we consolidate. We took out a 45k debt consolidation loan. We paid everything we owed and now for the next 7yrs we have a 530euro monthly loan payment to worry about. It's better then paying off credit cards just to live on the credit cards and in the end was a VERY big weight off my shoulders as I bared most of it for a while but for Camera Man it hit home too hard and too much, our fighting became more and even he almost went on stress medication.
5) Loan in place... LOTS of things to take care of and now we can survive, perhaps after this first month of actual living without loan but on Camera Man's wage, we will better be able to handle our living expenses and perhaps even put a tiny bit away here and there. But not without it's damage first. For instance the 2 external (not bank related) credit cards being assholes and not closing off our accounts, before the electric company wanted to put in something called a budget meter instead of the normal meter which means one has to go and charge a card to put in the machine to have electric but then fucking with us by telling me that things would not go farther if I paid a missed past due bill in full but then still ended up with papers that I 'refused' to have a budget meter placed when I didn't but instead PAID the amount in full to prevent it. Those are just 2 cases of things being a MAJOR problem with the paying back debt stuff. There are a bunch of minor things as well.
6) Include my parents (who live in Belgium with me since they retired) are not getting any younger and bring problems of their own. Mainly they are both not mentally here 100% any more. My father is most seen but my mother is having her own issues too although I'm not quite sure if that is the way she's been for a long time or if it is indeed her getting older now. This caused other problems like the fact that my father sometime last year put in wrong numbers for the water company, didn't take note that he paid only *1* bill of around 50euro the entire year of time until the beginning of this year when they again ask for numbers and found that the amount was WAY off by 100's of cubic meters. That ended up with a bill of 900euro. On that, (this all happens around the same some of year btw... around the time you set things up for an apartment/house in the way of living) there seems to of been an open end of year bill for the electric company too from last year so when the new bill for this year came, there was a calculation of another 800+euro owed. Why? because of my father being forgetful even though he is trying to make things organized at least in his mind when it makes no sense or is too much for anyone else to make sense of. Even just as of April 15th, 2014, he some how ended up with some health insurance stickers of mine and put in his health papers to be refunded that ended up under my name *shrug* not sure how that happened in the first place but he should have double checked the name on it but on the other hand so should have the health insurance place! So another 1700euro in unexpected/unplanned bills. Those however, I will keep an eye on with them but it will not be something Camera Man and I are going to help pay for. My father is responsible now for 2 payments set up by me for payments to the 2 companies. We just can't handle the costs now.
7) Our little sister kitty started having seizures or at least she started having them when we could SEE them happening. There were signs here and there like a wee puddle on the floor or drool puddles. We thought perhaps they were rebelling from me not being around or something but when we caught the first one by her, we realized it was her having a fit because if she hadn't been to the box recently, she'll lose whatever she had. It was horrible to watch. Fast forward a bit through a couple of vet visits, narcotic medication that makes me not know my little kitty as I knew her any more, more seizures to a MASSIVE seizure that wasn't just her spinning in a circle but her flopping around in the middle of the hallway for almost a straight minute. I rushed her to the vet at 11pm at night because after that attack she could hardly breath. They took blood and found that perhaps her problems are at least partly caused by being diabetic. This was in some ways good news but in the same more money that had/has to be spent.
8) We're not too far off the present time here now. I took kitty back to find out the news above only to put out another 100euro in the visit including a bag of dry kibble and 2 boxes of wet food specially for a diabetic kitty. We're trying this out by diet first. She had 20points above the max that she should have for a blood sugar test but that blood draw was RIGHT after her massive fit so god only knows how high it was before this fit happened, it could have easily been 70points higher then that. Even when a human with this problem goes out for a walk or any other form of exercise, their blood sugar drops. When one has a fit, they expend SO much energy while it happens that they are drained for days after.... same with the kitty.
9) The newest of desktop computers finally started to give... the one I needed for web work, video editing, photo editing and keeping up my site. Had no choice to revert from a 3g+ quad processor desktop to a 1.3g single processor laptop. It couldn't keep up, it wouldn't edit HD videos right and in the end just couldn't do what I needed. Ended up snagging parts we could from the old system which included the graphics card (just bought that a bit before this all happened), the ram/memory, the hard drive and the CD/DVD writer/reader. Bought a new case, new mother board, new CPU and an internal card reader. Went to a trusted computer only store and had them custom build a new machine. We had hopes that they could run a key finder on the old hard drive for my copy of Win7 because I didn't have my code any more (was on the case previously when I changed over to make room for the graphics card) and ended up having to pay another 130 euro (an extra 3rd of the total cost actually) to buy a new copy of Win7. I have that system now as of Tuesday (posted about it earlier) and I do love it but in the same it was another 400euro that went out the window that was not exactly wanted to be spent.
10) A bit forward.... the past, a lost job that I lived and breathed for over 2yrs... massive money issues, weight gain, depression, marriage problems (yes we're still together even after all of this!), problems with something(one) you love dearly, problems with aging parents who you also love to death but finding it harder to keep up with, having to find a new home for my website stuff (thank god I have found a good place for it now) and all the smaller shit that I haven't said.
We come on today... today being my breaking day in a good way.... why? Because yesterday after having a large talk the day before with my folks about needing to tell me about things that are going on, papers they don't understand because of the language or telling me things at times I can DO things about if there is a problem, I get a call from a friend and co-employee that I worked with that she got the news that she had a place with the new owners of the store. I was happy for her but in the same way, I was saddened that she got place and so far I had no news if I did or not. Then no sooner then I started to get saddened by it, I get an email notification on my tablet (which I was on atm) from the new owner telling me I had a position! I was ALL OVER THE PLACE! I went wild, hyper, happy and so overly excited I thought I might become an over excited puppy that wees all over the place :P
So you see my fellow readers, followers, lovers, fans and the rest, life is not easy. I hope with the news yesterday that I indeed get to work again for a place I loved so much that things will become a bit easier again specially in the money department. Please remember, my sites don't make an 'income', they have never turned a profit ever in the close to decade of time I have been doing this. All I do is put it back into the site in some form. The money that has come in through my clips4sale and my website itself since I started running again has gone into my computer alone.
I hope some of you take this posting to heart. Life is not sweets, good eating, laying around and taking pretty pictures... it's hard work even when you don't have work at all in the real life. I hope, so hope, things will change for the better. The good weather is here for us, warmer days, lots of sun and a clearer hope for the future with me having a job back. Perhaps Camera Man and I will even get a chance to get away this summer still for a break from everything. That sure would be nice.
Today was the first day I got to REALLY release myself and settle a bit. I had a good hard cry because it was just needed (sometimes it's needed for everyone, male or female) and because I have had such a rotten streak of luck the last few months. I finally had a 'good' break yesterday in all of the shit that I have been dealing with the last few months that made today the right day to relax and release. After that I feel like the world has been lifted from my shoulders and things I hope will look up from here on out. I'm so trying.
So what has been happening... let me take you back to start 6months ago until this month.
1) I lost my real life job. I wasn't fired, I didn't quite... the store I worked for... damn not worked... LIVED for day in and out for 2yrs of my life, went under. My last day of work without any notice to it at all was September 25th, 2013. This was the start of the worse 6months.
2) I gained almost 20kilo (45pounds roughly). I did *NOT* want this to happen but when you go from moving, bending, eating less, and all that for 8-10yrs a day, you don't gain weight. I was losing. My lowest weight was 143kilo or 315pounds. I was *SO* close to being under 300 pounds for the first time in 20yrs. Now I start over and from an even higher weight. My highest since living here, 167kilo until these last few months where I passed that by 5-6kilo and now sit at 173. This put me into quite a bit of depression and to be honest PAIN.
3) Camera Man and I have not had the best of times either. Fighting, spatting and the like more then being close. It doesn't make a lot of 'fun' times sexually or not. On camera or not either. This was made worse by the next event.
4) Fast forward until beginning of March when I told Camera Man that we had too much debt. We calculated it up and indeed decided it was best that we consolidate. We took out a 45k debt consolidation loan. We paid everything we owed and now for the next 7yrs we have a 530euro monthly loan payment to worry about. It's better then paying off credit cards just to live on the credit cards and in the end was a VERY big weight off my shoulders as I bared most of it for a while but for Camera Man it hit home too hard and too much, our fighting became more and even he almost went on stress medication.
5) Loan in place... LOTS of things to take care of and now we can survive, perhaps after this first month of actual living without loan but on Camera Man's wage, we will better be able to handle our living expenses and perhaps even put a tiny bit away here and there. But not without it's damage first. For instance the 2 external (not bank related) credit cards being assholes and not closing off our accounts, before the electric company wanted to put in something called a budget meter instead of the normal meter which means one has to go and charge a card to put in the machine to have electric but then fucking with us by telling me that things would not go farther if I paid a missed past due bill in full but then still ended up with papers that I 'refused' to have a budget meter placed when I didn't but instead PAID the amount in full to prevent it. Those are just 2 cases of things being a MAJOR problem with the paying back debt stuff. There are a bunch of minor things as well.
6) Include my parents (who live in Belgium with me since they retired) are not getting any younger and bring problems of their own. Mainly they are both not mentally here 100% any more. My father is most seen but my mother is having her own issues too although I'm not quite sure if that is the way she's been for a long time or if it is indeed her getting older now. This caused other problems like the fact that my father sometime last year put in wrong numbers for the water company, didn't take note that he paid only *1* bill of around 50euro the entire year of time until the beginning of this year when they again ask for numbers and found that the amount was WAY off by 100's of cubic meters. That ended up with a bill of 900euro. On that, (this all happens around the same some of year btw... around the time you set things up for an apartment/house in the way of living) there seems to of been an open end of year bill for the electric company too from last year so when the new bill for this year came, there was a calculation of another 800+euro owed. Why? because of my father being forgetful even though he is trying to make things organized at least in his mind when it makes no sense or is too much for anyone else to make sense of. Even just as of April 15th, 2014, he some how ended up with some health insurance stickers of mine and put in his health papers to be refunded that ended up under my name *shrug* not sure how that happened in the first place but he should have double checked the name on it but on the other hand so should have the health insurance place! So another 1700euro in unexpected/unplanned bills. Those however, I will keep an eye on with them but it will not be something Camera Man and I are going to help pay for. My father is responsible now for 2 payments set up by me for payments to the 2 companies. We just can't handle the costs now.
7) Our little sister kitty started having seizures or at least she started having them when we could SEE them happening. There were signs here and there like a wee puddle on the floor or drool puddles. We thought perhaps they were rebelling from me not being around or something but when we caught the first one by her, we realized it was her having a fit because if she hadn't been to the box recently, she'll lose whatever she had. It was horrible to watch. Fast forward a bit through a couple of vet visits, narcotic medication that makes me not know my little kitty as I knew her any more, more seizures to a MASSIVE seizure that wasn't just her spinning in a circle but her flopping around in the middle of the hallway for almost a straight minute. I rushed her to the vet at 11pm at night because after that attack she could hardly breath. They took blood and found that perhaps her problems are at least partly caused by being diabetic. This was in some ways good news but in the same more money that had/has to be spent.
8) We're not too far off the present time here now. I took kitty back to find out the news above only to put out another 100euro in the visit including a bag of dry kibble and 2 boxes of wet food specially for a diabetic kitty. We're trying this out by diet first. She had 20points above the max that she should have for a blood sugar test but that blood draw was RIGHT after her massive fit so god only knows how high it was before this fit happened, it could have easily been 70points higher then that. Even when a human with this problem goes out for a walk or any other form of exercise, their blood sugar drops. When one has a fit, they expend SO much energy while it happens that they are drained for days after.... same with the kitty.
9) The newest of desktop computers finally started to give... the one I needed for web work, video editing, photo editing and keeping up my site. Had no choice to revert from a 3g+ quad processor desktop to a 1.3g single processor laptop. It couldn't keep up, it wouldn't edit HD videos right and in the end just couldn't do what I needed. Ended up snagging parts we could from the old system which included the graphics card (just bought that a bit before this all happened), the ram/memory, the hard drive and the CD/DVD writer/reader. Bought a new case, new mother board, new CPU and an internal card reader. Went to a trusted computer only store and had them custom build a new machine. We had hopes that they could run a key finder on the old hard drive for my copy of Win7 because I didn't have my code any more (was on the case previously when I changed over to make room for the graphics card) and ended up having to pay another 130 euro (an extra 3rd of the total cost actually) to buy a new copy of Win7. I have that system now as of Tuesday (posted about it earlier) and I do love it but in the same it was another 400euro that went out the window that was not exactly wanted to be spent.
10) A bit forward.... the past, a lost job that I lived and breathed for over 2yrs... massive money issues, weight gain, depression, marriage problems (yes we're still together even after all of this!), problems with something(one) you love dearly, problems with aging parents who you also love to death but finding it harder to keep up with, having to find a new home for my website stuff (thank god I have found a good place for it now) and all the smaller shit that I haven't said.
We come on today... today being my breaking day in a good way.... why? Because yesterday after having a large talk the day before with my folks about needing to tell me about things that are going on, papers they don't understand because of the language or telling me things at times I can DO things about if there is a problem, I get a call from a friend and co-employee that I worked with that she got the news that she had a place with the new owners of the store. I was happy for her but in the same way, I was saddened that she got place and so far I had no news if I did or not. Then no sooner then I started to get saddened by it, I get an email notification on my tablet (which I was on atm) from the new owner telling me I had a position! I was ALL OVER THE PLACE! I went wild, hyper, happy and so overly excited I thought I might become an over excited puppy that wees all over the place :P
So you see my fellow readers, followers, lovers, fans and the rest, life is not easy. I hope with the news yesterday that I indeed get to work again for a place I loved so much that things will become a bit easier again specially in the money department. Please remember, my sites don't make an 'income', they have never turned a profit ever in the close to decade of time I have been doing this. All I do is put it back into the site in some form. The money that has come in through my clips4sale and my website itself since I started running again has gone into my computer alone.
I hope some of you take this posting to heart. Life is not sweets, good eating, laying around and taking pretty pictures... it's hard work even when you don't have work at all in the real life. I hope, so hope, things will change for the better. The good weather is here for us, warmer days, lots of sun and a clearer hope for the future with me having a job back. Perhaps Camera Man and I will even get a chance to get away this summer still for a break from everything. That sure would be nice.
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