Ok listen up here, if you are wanting to talk with me by some sort of IM or by E-mail and I've been kind enough to respond to such a response, you will *NOT* disrespect me in any form or fashion. I do not know you and you do not know me. I am giving you the PRIVILEG of MY time spent on you because YOU wanted it.
If you EVER think for a moment that I am there any time YOU want me to be just because 'oh she's online now, she better talk to me' you have something else coming.
You are NOTHING to me do you understand?? I am GIVING you my time and you best understand it is precious to me. I have VERY little 'free' time and just because I 'might' be sitting online some time some where with a browser or IM open, does *NOT* mean I am actually sitting here twiddling my thumbs in any remote hope that someone will log in and have a chat with me.
I have a REAL life outside my web life. I have a husband, an aging mother & father, a couple of sisters back in the states and you best believe there is a MASSIVE time difference between me and you if you are in the USA any where from 5 to 9hrs BEHIND me! If you are just waking for your day, I am most likely starting to prepare for my evening to start which included getting my kitchen in order, taking care of house hold choirs and getting ready to cook dinner or perhaps even already cooking it.
Now if you still want to chat with me HAVE A BIT OF FUCKING PATIENCE! I am not your toy or pawn to just drop everything because YOU wanted to chat with me. If I am here, if I can type, if *I* have time to chat or if I have the want even to chat, I will respond.... if not then there is most likely a reason and I will respond when I have the time or want.
Now get off your frigging high horse and remind yourself I am HUMAN behind this computer and stop trying to think you're gonna get away with giving me any kind of guilt trip because OMFG *I* didn't write you back *RIGHT* now.
/rant
We now return you to your normal every day perving. Thank you for your time and patience and try to remember, when you speak to a LADY such as myself, have the decent kindness of some respect shown toward her.
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Wednesday, September 17, 2014
Friday, August 8, 2014
Tired Of The World Lately
You'll find a post like this every so often because well lets face it, these are part of how my brain works and this is the place best suited to post what I feel about stuff in general.
This past week has gotten to me.... why? Lots of reasons.....
1. Tried going back to work but it was a 100% FAIL. 2hrs before the end of the shift, I was told to come and prove paper work to my health insurance place and for the moment I shouldn't be working because their doctor hadn't seen me nor did they have any proof that I should be working yet. This resulted in being told of by one of my co-workers who have *NO* fucking clue what has happened, what the insurance is or is not doing, what the work insurance is or is not doing (the ones who SHOULD be paying for this accident in the first place) and certainly no clue as to how badly I was injured. All he knows is if it were 'him' he would tell the health insurance off, finish his shift and not 'let his team down'. I am and will *NOT* risk 2000euro for 15euro (the 2hrs I gave up). If I don't jump as high as the health insurance places tells me to when they tell me to and how they tell me to, I risk not getting paid at all should something with my work's insurance not happen to cover the accident (it was on the way to work and out here that is also a work related accident as it was on company time/pay). So sorry, *NO*.
2. Bullshit music blasting, non-crowd controlling, idiot night dance cafes who can't tell if it's 2am or 2pm and figure that 1am/2am or later is a good time to start with the up/down/up/down/blast it because it's a good song (to them). Today I dealt with the cafe next door to me starting to blast their music loud enough that I could hear it through every room in the apartment, through the front window and OVER the down pouring rain starting at around 3pm today. At a bit before 4pm I finally started to took measures against it and messaged the owner to ask why at 4pm in the afternoon I had to deal with hearing the music so loudly in the middle of the day in the middle of the rain already and if I didn't have to deal with it enough in the evenings much less have to do it during the one part of the day I shouldn't have to. It's a NIGHT dance cafe... WTF!?
3. Being given double fucking standards. Here is this this and that rule for everyone. Then turn around and that that and that person is allowed to do it totally the other way then everyone else was told to do. I'm tired of people making rules, then deciding yea well you know what, never mind, go ahead and do this instead or ignore the rule we originally made. Not taking into count how many of us followed said rule when told to or for how long we followed it. It's just wrong and unfair.
4. People thinking that 'fat' people are 'unhealthy'. People do *NOT* look at one's lifestyle but instead stereotype all people purely by the way they look. They take into no consideration that skinny people can be unhealthy and can even be MORE unhealthy then a larger person. A skinny person for example can sit around the house all day, smoke like a chimney, drink nothing but sugared soda and play video games but show a fat person doing what they like to do out in public, moving around, showing off who they are and how proud they are and they just get told 'your fat, eat less, lose weight, move more' and all the rest of the bullshit that people have thrown on today's world. LEAVE FAT PEOPLE ALONE! We are HUMAN just like yourself, we have feelings, we have habits, we have lives, we have families, we have people who love us and we can be hurt just like any other 'skinny' person can be. Let us be and let us live our lives! Who gives YOU the right to judge WHO we are and HOW we should act? For that fact, who decides that for ANYONE, fat or thin?? Other then the obligated law type things that is.
Ok so that is what is bothering me tonight. It's almost 3am, I couldn't sleep so I came here to vent and grab something to drink. Now going to go and try to sleep some more
This past week has gotten to me.... why? Lots of reasons.....
1. Tried going back to work but it was a 100% FAIL. 2hrs before the end of the shift, I was told to come and prove paper work to my health insurance place and for the moment I shouldn't be working because their doctor hadn't seen me nor did they have any proof that I should be working yet. This resulted in being told of by one of my co-workers who have *NO* fucking clue what has happened, what the insurance is or is not doing, what the work insurance is or is not doing (the ones who SHOULD be paying for this accident in the first place) and certainly no clue as to how badly I was injured. All he knows is if it were 'him' he would tell the health insurance off, finish his shift and not 'let his team down'. I am and will *NOT* risk 2000euro for 15euro (the 2hrs I gave up). If I don't jump as high as the health insurance places tells me to when they tell me to and how they tell me to, I risk not getting paid at all should something with my work's insurance not happen to cover the accident (it was on the way to work and out here that is also a work related accident as it was on company time/pay). So sorry, *NO*.
2. Bullshit music blasting, non-crowd controlling, idiot night dance cafes who can't tell if it's 2am or 2pm and figure that 1am/2am or later is a good time to start with the up/down/up/down/blast it because it's a good song (to them). Today I dealt with the cafe next door to me starting to blast their music loud enough that I could hear it through every room in the apartment, through the front window and OVER the down pouring rain starting at around 3pm today. At a bit before 4pm I finally started to took measures against it and messaged the owner to ask why at 4pm in the afternoon I had to deal with hearing the music so loudly in the middle of the day in the middle of the rain already and if I didn't have to deal with it enough in the evenings much less have to do it during the one part of the day I shouldn't have to. It's a NIGHT dance cafe... WTF!?
3. Being given double fucking standards. Here is this this and that rule for everyone. Then turn around and that that and that person is allowed to do it totally the other way then everyone else was told to do. I'm tired of people making rules, then deciding yea well you know what, never mind, go ahead and do this instead or ignore the rule we originally made. Not taking into count how many of us followed said rule when told to or for how long we followed it. It's just wrong and unfair.
4. People thinking that 'fat' people are 'unhealthy'. People do *NOT* look at one's lifestyle but instead stereotype all people purely by the way they look. They take into no consideration that skinny people can be unhealthy and can even be MORE unhealthy then a larger person. A skinny person for example can sit around the house all day, smoke like a chimney, drink nothing but sugared soda and play video games but show a fat person doing what they like to do out in public, moving around, showing off who they are and how proud they are and they just get told 'your fat, eat less, lose weight, move more' and all the rest of the bullshit that people have thrown on today's world. LEAVE FAT PEOPLE ALONE! We are HUMAN just like yourself, we have feelings, we have habits, we have lives, we have families, we have people who love us and we can be hurt just like any other 'skinny' person can be. Let us be and let us live our lives! Who gives YOU the right to judge WHO we are and HOW we should act? For that fact, who decides that for ANYONE, fat or thin?? Other then the obligated law type things that is.
Ok so that is what is bothering me tonight. It's almost 3am, I couldn't sleep so I came here to vent and grab something to drink. Now going to go and try to sleep some more
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Saturday, January 18, 2014
What A Downer - Computer Chair Hunt
This is has and I think being the BBW I am at around 370# (168kilo) will always be at least one of only a very very few reasons I hate living here in Belgium. Things are just not meant for a person of my size out here. Yes they have come far in the bit over a decade that I've been here but still pisses me off when the simple things are hard to find.
So Camera Man and I went to an Ikea because of their vast collection shown online before going. We thought it would be better then the another furniture store we normally shopped at. Man oh man were we totally wrong! Not only was the collection shit but the way to get to the store plus how to navigate through the store is just bonkers. To get to the store, there is major road construction on the road that leads to the small part of freeway that one must get on to get into the parking lot of it and to top it off I of course have to pick the one night that it's raining quite a bit but of course stops when we are ready to leave and can take our time *eyes*.
The collection, as said although large, sucked. They were all either really expensive (not gonna spend a lot on a chair that either doesn't have a warranty on it or I *know* will last a couple of yrs min) or they were made of stuff that I wouldn't even trust my cat on much less my fat 60+ inch ass! I almost opted for a padded kitchen type chair over their shit worth of chairs. They didn't even have any decent office chairs. And this if this did not impress me enough, the ride home at around 9pm at night was hit by a almost stand still traffic jam between the parking lot and that little bit of friggin' freeway that we need to get on to get back out of there. It was *1hr* later that we got home when it should of taken oooo 20-25mins at most if we drove normally.
Ok so here we are the next afternoon (no chair, so still needed to go look for one). I could have opted to order something off the internet but sorry this is something I need to sit in before I buy it. I don't know anyone unless they are toothpick framed that can just order any chair they want and expect it to work for the purpose meant. So, back to the store we originally go to. I find like right off the bat 2 chairs I liked and one of them I really liked. Nice thick soft seat, kind of that fake leather feel (like it over cloth as it's easier to keep clean *halo*), nice high back, larger seat then most and all the other boxes I needed ticked off with exception that it's in white with black trim. Now the downer side, they are out of stock *sf* and oh yea until MARCH! Like fuck. But what can I do now? Nothing, I have to sit with the chair I have now for another 2 months and pray that they get them in before the end of March or that this chair at least last that long or I'm gonna be sitting like a munchy behind my desk where I can barely see over the table part!
Blah... it's trips like the one to Ikea last night that really make having a positive outlook on being a BBW really hard and actually quite painful. I was really upset by this. I can't see how the ladies now a days are all into this feeder/gainer type situation. I HATE not being able to do stuff I want or fit in places I need/want like the damn computer chairs. Even now the only thing 'wrong' with this chair is the gas cylinder that no longer wants to keep working right, for the rest its a damn good chair... so good in fact that it's my 2nd one like this and the one I pre-ordered is very much like it. Oh yea and no dinky 'computer' style chairs for this lady, nono.... nice plush office/desk style chairs :D So ok it was a bust getting one *NOW* but at least I will have a new one to look forward to in March. Perhaps I'll even find a way to break it in with photos/videos ;)
So Camera Man and I went to an Ikea because of their vast collection shown online before going. We thought it would be better then the another furniture store we normally shopped at. Man oh man were we totally wrong! Not only was the collection shit but the way to get to the store plus how to navigate through the store is just bonkers. To get to the store, there is major road construction on the road that leads to the small part of freeway that one must get on to get into the parking lot of it and to top it off I of course have to pick the one night that it's raining quite a bit but of course stops when we are ready to leave and can take our time *eyes*.
The collection, as said although large, sucked. They were all either really expensive (not gonna spend a lot on a chair that either doesn't have a warranty on it or I *know* will last a couple of yrs min) or they were made of stuff that I wouldn't even trust my cat on much less my fat 60+ inch ass! I almost opted for a padded kitchen type chair over their shit worth of chairs. They didn't even have any decent office chairs. And this if this did not impress me enough, the ride home at around 9pm at night was hit by a almost stand still traffic jam between the parking lot and that little bit of friggin' freeway that we need to get on to get back out of there. It was *1hr* later that we got home when it should of taken oooo 20-25mins at most if we drove normally.
Ok so here we are the next afternoon (no chair, so still needed to go look for one). I could have opted to order something off the internet but sorry this is something I need to sit in before I buy it. I don't know anyone unless they are toothpick framed that can just order any chair they want and expect it to work for the purpose meant. So, back to the store we originally go to. I find like right off the bat 2 chairs I liked and one of them I really liked. Nice thick soft seat, kind of that fake leather feel (like it over cloth as it's easier to keep clean *halo*), nice high back, larger seat then most and all the other boxes I needed ticked off with exception that it's in white with black trim. Now the downer side, they are out of stock *sf* and oh yea until MARCH! Like fuck. But what can I do now? Nothing, I have to sit with the chair I have now for another 2 months and pray that they get them in before the end of March or that this chair at least last that long or I'm gonna be sitting like a munchy behind my desk where I can barely see over the table part!
Blah... it's trips like the one to Ikea last night that really make having a positive outlook on being a BBW really hard and actually quite painful. I was really upset by this. I can't see how the ladies now a days are all into this feeder/gainer type situation. I HATE not being able to do stuff I want or fit in places I need/want like the damn computer chairs. Even now the only thing 'wrong' with this chair is the gas cylinder that no longer wants to keep working right, for the rest its a damn good chair... so good in fact that it's my 2nd one like this and the one I pre-ordered is very much like it. Oh yea and no dinky 'computer' style chairs for this lady, nono.... nice plush office/desk style chairs :D So ok it was a bust getting one *NOW* but at least I will have a new one to look forward to in March. Perhaps I'll even find a way to break it in with photos/videos ;)
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